finally

So there have been many things in the last few weeks that have come to mind that I would maybe want to blog about. Usually though I would think about them at times that I couldn't write about it. So I wouldn't and would just shove the ideas in the back of my mind. So today I needed to write.

Why is the sex industry and porn so acceptable in our society? On the one hand its thought of as a bad thing, but then every single person has their experiences with it. And even if someone intends something to be for the romance aspect. Well, it still creates feelings in the person watching or reading, that shouldn't be happening in that setting. I think that we want to think the best of people at times. We want our heroes to be people that are not involved in the culture of death. Death of the pure and holy things. But then all of those around us are proud of their experiences with these degradations, these piles of cow crap. It makes me angry but also makes me sad. There was a guy today that said that when he is around porn and such he gets nauseous, well honestly I think thats a better thing than being stimulated by it. It actually makes me think that guy has a better grasp on how terrible we have made sex out to be. Why haven't we taught guys what sex is really about. Why haven't we learned ourselves as women to respect ourselves enough to say no or to not dress like a slut. I guess its cause we suck. And I blame the people that want to pull others down into the dumpster because for some reason that dumpster must be pretty appealing. Maybe it has a beautiful painting on the front of it or something, or a whole bunch of footballs.

The part that has hit lately is the whole human trafficking thing. So many of these women are not in it because they want to be. Something or someone has made them be. And it sucks. I have to try not to cry at this because I would, I know how much a misrepresentation of sex can screw a person up. And its not fun, the thrill of it doesn't last if there is any thrill. It just sends you into a depression, at least it did for me.

I want to challenge those people that read this, the whole 2 of them, to really live out who God made them be, a sexual being, but not one that sees the opposite sex as meat or a humping post, and to dress in a way that is flattering but not revealing. Girls are beautiful to guys, and guys are handsome to girls. But lets not picture them naked, or obsess about them. Just treat them like your best friend, or your sister. I mean think of it this way would you want your sister or brother to be defiled by every man or woman she came in contact with. No. So don't do it yourself to someone else's sister or brother.

So I probably didn't have a real point. All I know is that this world is oversexualized and we aren't helping the matter by bragging about strip club experiences or porn experiences. So just stop. Read a Theology of the Body book and just start living life the way we are intended to do so.

Enough said...

rants

Ranting a bit because I am tired.

1. Soccer is a sport, so get used to it stupid Americans who don't get it. Once you are on the in with it then you can officially appreciate. If you still don't think its a sport then I retaliate by saying American football is not a sport.

2. I like being Catholic. I just do, there is so much about it that is awesome and the church that I was confirmed and married in is awesome too for being so true to the faith.

3. No sleep makes me feel old. I don't want to be old, nor look old.

4. In all actuality I wouldn't mind presenting my selenium stuff.

5. I think there is a reason that living together before marriage doesnt work for actually staying married, and that is because it carries out a culture of death and of selfishness. People are like oh we have to try this before making a commitment. But already you have two things going against you. One, there is a liberty of getting out because there is no benefit for the one person thus creating a relationship of use instead of love. Love is way more complicated than a feeling. Even I have trouble with this sometimes, but then I have the most excellent husband that reminds me what love is as he is Christ-like in his demeanor. So with the sense that there has to be some benefit for me, is selfish, pure selfishness.

Two, living together before marriage promotes a culture of death because most cases if you are living together that means you are having a non-platonic relationship, there is sexual arrousal or even, my gosh!, sex involved. And besides the whole emotional aspect that it screws up a girl, she has this disease of fertility that has to be cured so that we can pleasure without responsibility. So she either has to subject herself to having some polymer material stuck up her vagina, or hormones that make her sometimes have major complications or just depression and mood swings. And the death of it is, that the man and woman engaging in this act well they aren't open to life. Because life would make things complicated and screw up their selfish ways. So us women we have to cure this disease of fertility and we end up having a whole bunch of abortifacient chemicals in our systems. Death. lovely death. Why why why!!!!!!

6. And lastly when your friend tells you she wants to get an iud stuck up her what do you do? Reading about it, its primary form of birth control is early abortions. You try to promote NFP, but in a relationship of sex outside marriage, NFP is really hard to do, because its just completely contradictory to what is going on there. Craziness. So you think about it and you know what society tells you you can't tell her what to do, because its her freakin choice GRRRRRRR. Why do I want to promote selfishness. I want to promote selflessness, and life, not death. GRRRRRRRR.

Ok done ranting. Peace.

i wish i didn't see the effects of stress

Exactly that. I wish that I could do something and not be so stressed out by it and in the process actually feel God being in control, but I don't. For some reason I let stress get to me. GRRR. So pray for me if you read this. I need it.

Sometimes I wonder how do I eliminate the stress, but I think I simply need to see it differently. Because my new learned lesson is that prayer doesn't change God's heart, it changes ours. So yeah, I really need mine changed on this one. Really.

stumbled upon

I stumbled upon this prayer today in my morning time with God. Its so inclusive I think thats why it's entitled the Universal Prayer. But really makes one think about how everything not just how we deal with other, but everything, should include God. It makes me think about how NFP works with God, even though sometimes its tough to do so, or maybe thats a side note from my listening to Katherine and Mac yesterday.

THE UNIVERSAL PRAYER (attributed to Pope Clement XI)
Lord, I believe in you: increase my faith.
I trust in you: strengthen my trust.
I love you: let me love you more and more.
I am sorry for my sins: deepen my sorrow.

I worship you as my first beginning,
I long for you as my last end,
I praise you as my constant helper,
And call on you as my loving protector.

Guide me by your wisdom,
Correct me with your justice,
Comfort me with your mercy,
Protect me with your power.

I offer you, Lord, my thoughts: to be fixed on you;
My words: to have you for their theme;
My actions: to reflect my love for you;
My sufferings: to be endured for your greater glory.

I want to do what you ask of me:
In the way you ask,
For as long as you ask,
Because you ask it.

Lord, enlighten my understanding,
Strengthen my will,
Purify my heart,
and make me holy.

Help me to repent of my past sins
And to resist temptation in the future.
Help me to rise above my human weaknesses
And to grow stronger as a Christian.

Let me love you, my Lord and my God,
And see myself as I really am:
A pilgrim in this world,
A Christian called to respect and love
All whose lives I touch,
Those under my authority,
My friends and my enemies.

Help me to conquer anger with gentleness,
Greed by generosity,
Apathy by fervor.
Help me to forget myself
And reach out toward others.

Make me prudent in planning,
Courageous in taking risks.
Make me patient in suffering, unassuming in prosperity.

Keep me, Lord, attentive at prayer,
Temperate in food and drink,
Diligent in my work,
Firm in my good intentions.

Let my conscience be clear,
My conduct without fault,
My speech blameless,
My life well-ordered.
Put me on guard against my human weaknesses.
Let me cherish your love for me,
Keep your law,
And come at last to your salvation.

Teach me to realize that this world is passing,
That my true future is the happiness of heaven,
That life on earth is short,
And the life to come eternal.

Help me to prepare for death
With a proper fear of judgment,
But a greater trust in your goodness.
Lead me safely through death
To the endless joy of heaven.

Grant this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

the oddities of morality in Friday Night Lights

so again when we can't ever call someone out when they make a bad choice, then we have a society where everything is OK, and one full of hypocrisy.

Take the show Friday Night Lights,

While this is an exaggeration of what actually happens in the Bible belt south, it still represents some skewed views of what it is to be a Christian. And for someone to simply see this show and then say ok those people are Christians would be bad representation of what God wants us to be.

1. One of the Christian Moms, who is Black none the less, works for Planned Parenthood. (if the killing of innocent lives by Planned Parenthood isn't enough, then the eugenics of the organization should send you over the top).

2. One of the cheerleaders, Lila, is promiscuous and immodest who again goes to church and prays regularly but doesn't understand that God applies to her sex life.

3. All of these families have only 1 child, while some people can only have 1 child, but most of the people only choose to have one child because it would be too much work and sacrifice to have more.

4. Lila's father seems to think that anything less than the ideal for his not so good daughter and said that he would not support his daughter if she were to marry a crippled man. Because it would require too much sacrifice.

5. The boys in this "Christian" town are allowed to have as much sex as they want and in any way they want, and they are allowed to cheat with all schoolwork because they play football.

Many reasons why you can't just let things go. You need to be tolerant in the way that it is true instead of the live and let live philosophy.

lesson

lesson being taught to me by God...

"I wanna be I wanna be like that mountain
I wanna stand taller and bigger than rest
See I just wanna be it a guy who wins all the time
I wanna be a big star a king and rule my own life
And God I know that it's wrong
So please just make my heart right
Inside and destroy my pride"

the things that odd ones like me think about

1. If we don't uphold the commands that God gave us and continues to give us in our actions and how we deal with others what will the world come to. Why is it that if it hurts someone's feelings but its what God tells us to do that we go against God? It just bugs me that because we are afraid to hurt each other's feelings we become this society that allows the bad and turns away from the good.

2.Am I racist or a bigot of some sort when behind me the man turns on his cell phone mp3 player and I am totally annoyed, because it is so loud and distracting. But the man was black. I would like to think I would be annoyed with anyone that plays their mp3 cell phone, when the rules post that you have to use headphones, but for some reason on the train it is always a black person. I hope that I haven't become someone who is annoyed at a particular race, but only a particular trait of disturbing others.

3. So you always see parents reprimanding kids for swearing, the thing is that most of those parents will swear in front of their kids. So why do they get so upset for their kids for swearing when they themselves aren't being a good example. Kids learn stuff from their parents despite what some may tell you.

Sorry for the rants.