life

1. With our house on the market, we started looking at houses in Cleveland. I am falling in love with a few of them. Makes me want to garden and have children more.

2. Going to Catholic Heart Work Camp, though for myself, my position I am now signed up for feels more like a cop out position since it is no longer on a work site hammering and painting. Oh well, sometimes circumstances dictate choices.

3. My friend Meghan is going to Israel finally! I am very proud of her for making this move and taking the plunge to go and stop being scared of the consequences. I look forward to many skype chats with her.

4. I was able to reunite with a friend I haven't talked to in over a year. Turns out she just had a wee one about a month ago. Which is the coolest. Welcome baby Sofi to the world!

5. I am getting more excited about the potential in life these days, so many things seem to be gelling at the moment, and thats pretty cool. Prayer works, and God listens.

a few resources that I have found today that I like

First Modesty at Mass article: honestly I am more guilty of judging those that are immodest that just trying to be a good example. So maybe I should just work on this. But this gives good reason to be modest.
Inside Catholic: Mass Modesty

The Cross of Infertility Podcast: as my non-existent readership knows, I have had a a bit of a struggle with this. This hit home at many points, and is very informative to know what to do with those around you that do struggle with infertility.
The Cross of Infertility

Ingenuity Festival Cleveland: This is going on this weekend in downtown Cleveland. It mixes technology with art, they make music with science and art out of engineering. Honestly, it's the nerd in me that makes me like this festival. But if you are in the area and are free, you should check it out.
Ingenuity Fest 2009

maybe I'm not what the world considers to be a feminist

because this article in many points bugs me.

Interview with Justice Ginsburg


Maybe its the fact that there in complete subjectivity instead of objectivity in her approach to law and to the new woman Judge that was appointed.

And maybe, just maybe its the eugenics talked about on the last page of the article.

I think I would rather be an anti-feminist in the world's sense and like having babies and being a mother and have judicial decisions not be feelings oriented, then be the other way around.

avoiding blogging

I kinda have been avoiding full blogging lately. I think partially because I need to put my emotions on hold for a little while and watch it pan out. However, I can give an update.

1.)Yesterday we put our house on the market to sell. We are hoping to move into the central and southern part of the city of Cleveland, instead of being on the county line in the suburbs, too far from anything that we participate in. So hoping to sell quickly and be able to move by October at the latest. Prayers appreciated concerning this.

2.)I have been enjoying walks lately, it helps keep my head on straight and gives me a break from the constant feel of things needing to be done. So I recommend a walk around the block to recharge batteries, it really works.

3.) In about a week and a half, we will be headed to Catholic Heart Workcamp which for us means going down the road 2 hours to Pittsburgh. Should be fun, and I am looking forward to getting out of my normal routine to help someone else out. It should be nice.

4.)My husband and I went to my parent's house for the 4th, it was a decent weekend, only filled with a slight bit of resentment and anger. Ultimately I realized that my judgement of others is something I kinda need to be cautious of and work on, so I am gonna try not to judge so much, but try to see the good in the person, and forgive the faults, because most of the time a person doesn't even know they are in any fault and pointing it out just makes one feel bad. Though the arguement does kinda leave me angry with one of my family members, I guess that I will have just get over that too.

5.)I dunno what else there is to update on, check back in a few weeks for another update, hopefully I will blog in the meantime though.

need to learn humility

Sorry for the times that I have had a holier than thou attitude. Sorry I don't like the beach. Sorry I have yet been able to fully grasp the way to connect being good with humility. Sorry for being judgemental when I need to love. These are things that I really need to work on. I'll keep praying for learning in these things, and actually try to learn them. They are kind of engrained, so its probably gonna be a huge work of grace and time and struggle. that's all. goodbye.

But what is love?

Cool Hand Luke -This is Love

"Is this love
or something to think of?

We fool ourselves for comfort,
we're swayed by every wind.
And if this isn't true love,
then we can just pretend.
But what is love?

This is love
that you would die for me.

Is this real,
or something to feel?

Confused by our emotions,
confused by what we see.
We trade in our patience,
for false security.
But is this love?

This is love,
that you would die for me.

When I'm falling down,
you save me.

This is how I know
what love is. (9x)
And I'd die for this."

quick note

The 4th of July might be extra good this year. Just saying. and keep praying. To my non-existent readership, you guys are awesome.