The whole time I was watching the movie, in the back of my mind I was contemplating what divine mercy really was. You see, I struggle with things like pure definitions and hardly ever accept them as is. I mean I've spent hours trying to understand grace, I think I have it to something I understand, but I still think about it at times. Mercy is no different. I think partially it may be because of my upbringing and there being different vocabulary for things. I began to think about why mercy is so hard for my head to wrap around, and I came to conclude that its because its so vast, and while we carry out our little part, God's part in it so big it maybe isn't something we can put in words. In my feeble words it would be to be forgiven when we don't deserve it. Perhaps a free pass.
And then it made contemplate what this would be in my upbringing, my protestant one. Because while not having divine mercy, the all encompassing thing, there is a sense of mercy. And to me that would come in when a person has that first come to Jesus moment, because there is that belief that once Jesus comes in to your life that all your sins are forgiven. So in turn this would for sure be a moment of mercy. The difference then between Catholic theology and the protestant theology is that for Catholics, this isn't a one time deal. We at least should recognize that we are in constant need of God's mercy, because we are that much infiltrated by our human weaknesses that causes us to screw up and sin.
So its not that protestants don't have mercy in their vocabulary, they do. Its just that its viewed differently. And I think one of the really appealing things to me about Catholicism and perhaps one of there reasons it makes people feel uncomfortable, is that we understand that it is a constant battle between grace and pride. And that when that pride wins we need to run to the arms of Jesus over and over to receive that mercy and start anew. I remember in converting that protestants were worried about me becoming a bad Christian in being Catholic, and to that I say if relying on and recognizing the need of God's infinite mercy is being a bad Christian, then I am guilty.
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